Part of being the
best American you can be is learning to be grateful for and responsible with
the freedoms we have been given. We need
to become better at policing our own actions and not expect big government to control
our every word and action. Our country
is supposed to be of, by and for the people.
Can we have a working government made up of the people if the people
cannot be independently responsible?
Additionally, I think giving people the benefit of the doubt and being
slow to accuse is part of being a better American - or maybe that's just a
better person.
That being said…
A friend recently
posted an article (http://todaysmama.com/2017/06/michelle-carter-conviction-means-kids/)
regarding the conviction of Michelle Carter.
Michelle had texted her boyfriend encouraging texts. Unfortunately, she
was encouraging him to commit suicide.
She also failed to get help when she knew his plans to harm
himself.
The friend who
posted about Michelle talked about how impactful words can be. She jumped on
the bandwagon of condemning Michelle for her actions and supporting the legal
conviction. Michelle was convicted of
Involuntary Manslaughter.
I shared the article
as well, but without commenting. I was
curious how people would respond. It was
one of my most shared posts and many of my friends who reposted it followed a
similar line as the friend who first shared it.
Words are
powerful. They can inspire and
destroy.
I also believe,
however, that for words to be powerful, to inspire or destroy, they require a
listener. Not just ears, but someone to
take them in. I believe every person has
free agency - both speakers and listeners.
I do not condone the
words or actions or lack of words and actions used by Michelle. I also do not claim a place of perfect
perspective on Michelle, her boyfriend or either of their situations.
I will call her
Michelle, as opposed to Carter as many other articles and bloggers will,
because regardless of her actions she is still a person. I feel comfortable judging an action, but not
a person. I will also not judge the
intent behind the actions. I do believe
there are absolute truths and some things are absolutely right and absolutely
wrong. But again, I cannot see into the
hearts of anyone. I have difficulty
understanding my own sometimes.
The initial blog
that was shared is well-written. It has
several good points and I'd admire that she also refrained from judging
Michelle or anyone else in the story.
She focused on the lessons we can learn and should share with our
children. Some statements seemed
slightly slanted, however, and this article was not alone.
The title of this
article via CNN gives a clear judgement for cause and effect (http://www.cnn.com/2017/06/08/us/text-message-suicide-michelle-carter-conrad-roy/index.html)
and places the blame fully on Michelle.
This CNN article (http://www.cnn.com/2017/06/16/us/michelle-carter-texting-case/index.html)
shows a more objective title and the article is based more on the facts. The court's rulings are shared, but not the
authors.
I found these
articles as I tried to do my own research related to Michelle's case. I wanted to see the actual texts sent and why
the conviction of involuntary manslaughter was made. Some facts:
- Involuntary manslaughter refers to the "unintentional killing that results from recklessness or criminal negligence, or from an unlawful act that is a misdemeanor or low-level felony." http://criminal.findlaw.com/criminal-charges/involuntary-manslaughter-overview.html
This
overview describes three elements that must be included in the conviction of
involuntary manslaughter:
- Someone was killed as a result of the defendant's actions.
- The act either was inherently dangerous to others or done with reckless disregard for human life.
- The defendant knew or should have known his or her conduct was a threat to the lives of others
- The judge stated "she put him in that toxic environment [which] constituted reckless conduct."
- Michelle urged her boyfriend, Conrad Roy III, to get help. She tells him she would get help if she were in his place. She says "please don't" in reference to him harming himself.
- Later texts show her discussing the means by which Conrad will eventually kill himself. The next day she is asking him if he is "doing it tonight."
- This series of texts is shared. It is over a span of nine days. The full conversations are not included:
Carter: "You're
gonna have to prove me wrong because I just don't think you really want this.
You just keeps pushing it off to another night and say you'll do it but you
never do"
---
Carter: "SEE
THAT'S WHAT I MEAN. YOU KEEP PUSHING IT OFF! You just said you were gonna do it
tonight and now you're saying eventually. . . ."
---
Carter: "But
I bet you're gonna be like 'oh, it didn't work because I didn't tape the tube
right or something like that' . . . I bet you're gonna say an excuse like
that"
---
Carter: "Do
you have the generator?"
Roy: "not
yet lol"
Carter: "WELL
WHEN ARE YOU GETTING IT"
---
Carter: "You
better not be bull sh*ting me and saying you're gonna do this and then
purposely get caught"
- And this:
Roy: "I'm
just to sensitive. I want my family to know there was nothing they could do. I
am entrapped in my own thoughts"
Roy: "like
no I would be happy if they had no guilt about it. because I have a bad feeling
tht this is going to create a lot of depression between my
parents/sisters"
Roy: "i'm
overthinking everything. . f**k. I gotta stop and just do it"
Carter: "I
think your parents know you're in a really bad place. Im not saying they want
you to do it, but I honestly feel like they can accept it. They know there's
nothing they can do, they've tried helping, everyone's tried. But there's a
point that comes where there isn't anything anyone can do to save you, not even
yourself, and you've hit that point and I think your parents know you've hit
that point. You said you're mom saw a suicide thing on your computer and she
didn't say anything. I think she knows it's on your mind and she's prepared for
it"
Carter: Everyone
will be sad for a while, but they will get over it and move on. They won't be
in depression I won't let that happen. They know how sad you are and they know
that you're doing this to be happy, and I think they will understand and accept
it. They'll always carry u in their hearts"
- This
Roy: "Idk
I'm freaking out again"
Roy: I'm
overthinking"
Carter: "I
thought you wanted to do this. The time is right and you're ready, you just
need to do it! You can't keep living this way. You just need to do it like you
did last time and not think about it and just do it babe. You can't keep doing
this every day"
Roy: "I
do want to. but like I'm freaking for my family. I guess"
Roy: "idkkk"
Carter: "Conrad.
I told you I'll take care of them. Everyone will take care of them to make sure
they won't be alone and people will help them get thru it. We talked about
this, they will be okay and accept it. People who commit suicide don't think
this much and they just do it"
- And this:
Carter: "So
I guess you aren't gonna do it then, all that for nothing"
Carter: "I'm
just confused like you were so ready and determined"
Roy: "I
am gonna eventually"
Roy: "I
really don't know what I'm waiting for. . but I have everything lined up"
Carter: "No,
you're not, Conrad. Last night was it. You keep pushing it off and you say
you'll do it but u never do. Its always gonna be that way if u don't take
action"
Carter: "You're
just making it harder on yourself by pushing it off, you just have to do
it"
Carter: "Do
u wanna do it now?"
Roy: "Is
it too late?"
Roy: "Idkk
it's already light outside"
Roy: I'm
gonna go back to sleep, love you I'll text you tomorrow"
Carter: "No?
Its probably the best time now because everyone's sleeping. Just go somewhere
in your truck. And no one's really out right now because it's an awkward
time"
Carter: "If
u don't do it now you're never gonna do it"
Carter: "And
u can say you'll do it tomorrow but you probably won't"
---
Carter: "You
just need to do it Conrad or I'm gonna get you help"
Carter: "You
can't keep doing this everyday"
Roy: "Okay
I'm gonna do it today"
Carter: "Do
you promise"
Roy: "I
promise babe"
Roy: "I
have to now"
Carter: "Like
right now?"
Roy: "where
do I go? :("
Carter: "And
u can't break a promise. And just go in a quiet parking lot or something."
- She heard Conrad's last breaths on a phone call and did not tell him to get out of the truck or talk him out of the choice in any other way at that time. She did not call the police after he committed the act of suicide.
I know that is a lot
to read for a blog, but I think it is important that you have some of the
actual texts. It would be best if we all
read the entirety of the texts but there are 100s.
Again, I do not
condone the things that Michelle said, but I wonder if we could offer a
perspective that may not have been considered, or maybe it was and
dismissed. Michelle did not want Roy to
do it. She didn't think he would and
started out encouraging him not to. He
eventually convinces her that he is going to and she sees him as inconsolable. So she loves him the best way she knows how
and supports him. He is wishy washy and
she gets frustrated. She may already
feel frustrated given the whole situation.
Or perhaps she
viewed his suicidal ideation as cries for attention and sarcastically pushed at
him. His consistent avoidance of
attempting suicide proved her right - if this had been her thinking.
But then we have the
phone call. Was she tired of trying to
talk him out of it? Resigned? Already
grieving? Or maybe she was, in fact, bullying
him and encouraging him to kill himself because she was cruel and careless.
I am not making
excuses for her. I am simply offering
some different possibilities. A judge
made a conviction. One person. An imperfect person, trying to do the right
thing.
I've mentioned my
life-long effort at tact. To be honest,
it didn't start until high school. I am
smart. Not brilliant, top of the class kind
of smart. I might have been smarter, but
I tend to rush through things and I am a bit air headed. I enjoy activity, but am too often easily
distracted. At any rate, the combination of not having tact, but being smart
often meant I had a quick and wicked tongue - with anyone and everyone. If I had an answer or an opinion, I had
trouble keeping it to myself regardless of the appropriateness of the place or
time.
My intention was
never to hurt, though that was exactly what I was often doing. I didn't recognize it in myself until I
recognized it in another person very close to me. I saw this brilliant person seeing things as
I do or better and then harshly share them.
I knew this person didn't mean them cruelly, but even this person's tone
of voice and facial expression seemed to be demeaning and belittling the people
they loved best. I paid attention to the
reactions of others and how I felt when talked to in this way. I don't remember the exact moment, but I
eventually made the connection and recognized the same pattern in myself.
We should police our
own words. We should do our best to
teach our children to be kind and manage their words wisely and always
encourage others to do the right. But
that does not make us perfect judges.
So here is what I
will do with this. I recognize that my
words can impact people. I also
recognize that other people say things from their imperfect perspective - they
may or may not be intending harm, but either way, it is my choice to be harmed
or not. No one else's words can make me
do anything. I will not place the blame
on anyone. It is not my place. But I can learn from this.
The political side
of this is terrifying. This judge is
saying that someone's words can force another person to act. That your actions or my actions can be
controlled by another person's words freedom of speech. Where then is the line for our freedom of
speech? It is understood that freedoms
are freedoms as far as they do not incur another's freedoms. But if what is said can control another
person's actions, how can freedom of speech stand? This is a slippery slope if there ever was
one.
Whether or not
Michelle was morally wrong to support her boyfriend in his choice to commit
suicide and to not call for help, I cannot support that she was legally
wrong. If this ruling stands, then every
suicide could likely be determined to be no longer suicide - unless there is a
serious mental illness in play.
The stretches this
judge made to state Michelle's actions fit the conviction of involuntary
manslaughter are among the best contortionist poses I have ever heard of. This is terrifying. Where do we go from here? What can be said? People are so easily offended these days - so
easily shocked and hurt by the opinions of others.
The children's rhyme
"sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me"
seems to have been forgotten. I wonder
if some think this rhyme was people in denial.
I wonder, however,
if this rhyme was a reminder to kids and adults alike to not allow others'
words to control them and that actions are our own responsibility and others
could not be blamed for them.